I'll find a little melody that moves you.

An update on everything, for those who want to read. My anxiety and panic attacks have not bothered...

Tue, 21 May 2013 04:21:16 -0400

An update on everything, for those who want to read.

My anxiety and panic attacks have not bothered me since the one night, where I did have to sleep with my light on and cried myself to sleep…but thanks to great friends who reached out to me, I got through it and am feeling a lot better. I’m also really sure the guy at the bar wasn’t who I thought it was. Which is cool. The day after I realized how silly it all was….I slept with my light off, and have been doing fine since.

I’ve been holding on to other stuff for a long time. A lost love. In my eyes, I always saw him as perfect. That I’d never find anyone better. But I realized in order to get better, I really have to get over all my past - not just the more recent parts. The whole bit. So I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching, trying to figure out how I can do that. And I’ve found my way. And I’m so happy. I finally don’t have feelings for him anymore. And it’s not because of some other guy like usual, it’s because I know he wasn’t for me. He wasn’t perfect. He isn’t my soul mate. I KNOW that. All it needed was some late nights thinking, and one silly customer at my Quik Trip that helped me see I don’t need a guy in my life in order to be happy. I define my happiness. And I can find happiness within myself. I don’t need anyone else to do it for me. I don’t need to rely on others. I make the decisions. I decide my fate.

It’s so much more freeing than I could ever explain. I’m so happy I could cry. Cry happy tears…who’d have thought? I’m lighter, and I’m smiling as I type this. I thought I had everything all planned out - knew who I was gonna be with, knew where I’d end up….but nothing is certain. And I make the rules.

It’s time I make myself known to be important. That what I want matters. Because it does. And I matter. My happiness matters. Time to be stubborn and get what I want. I’m sick of being used and walked over and made out to be worthless. I have worth. I have something to offer this world, and I WILL be important.

torikellymusic: just jumping around the venues.

Tue, 21 May 2013 04:08:23 -0400

torikellymusic:

just jumping around the venues.

do u ever just make scenarios in your head that will never happen but makes you so happy so you...

Tue, 21 May 2013 03:52:48 -0400

do u ever just make scenarios in your head that will never happen but makes you so happy so you just keep on imagining them

"That’s how you know you love someone, I guess, when you can’t experience anything without wishing..."

Tue, 21 May 2013 02:47:57 -0400

“That’s how you know you love someone, I guess, when you can’t experience anything without wishing the other person were there to see it, too.”

- KHM (via barbieandken)

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So I bought this dress today…..😳😁😁😁😄😃😍😍😍😍😍😍😍...

Mon, 20 May 2013 23:15:04 -0400

So I bought this dress today…..😳😁😁😁😄😃😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 #worththemoney #itsbeautiful #soexcited in love and can’t wait to rock it this summer.

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slanting: (by Catarina Rodriguees)

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slanting:

(by Catarina Rodriguees)

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kari-shma: by: Monostep

Mon, 20 May 2013 12:01:12 -0400

kari-shma:

by: Monostep

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oakbaby: “you’re going to make a man very happy someday” no im not. Im going to ruin his life

Mon, 20 May 2013 02:16:04 -0400

oakbaby:

“you’re going to make a man very happy someday” no im not. Im going to ruin his life

black-knife: Tired

Mon, 20 May 2013 01:09:42 -0400

black-knife:

Tired

una-bella-principessa: beautiful.

Mon, 20 May 2013 01:08:49 -0400

una-bella-principessa:

beautiful.

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